What's the matter

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Have you ever felt like you're getting older and still you don't know where to go, what path to take or simply what you wanted to prove to yourself?

Well, if that is so, then "Welcome Aboard, Mate!"

When I was a little girl, I had lotsa high dreams. I love arts, and that is what my happiness was all about. But life's tragic, and everything I wanted was way too luxurious to achieve--so, I have to understand, accept and be just plain practical. That's when I have start thinking that a career with arts is not for me after all.

And now, at 22, I'm a Food Tech Graduate from Xavier University-Ateneo de Cagayan, I may not be a top student but I have numbers of achievements to be proud of--yet, I still feel incomplete.

Just this April 2013, I have decided to start my pace on my 1st love--and that's nothing else but drawing, coloring, sketching and the like. And I feel light-hearted whenever I finish a piece of my work. That contentment, that satisfaction, the solitude I feel whenever I'm alone with just my sketchpad and pens, and coloring stuffs. Nothing else. I never dreamt of being rich, having 50 Porsches, or a building-like house, but I dreamt of being HAPPY and CONTENT. Nothing more, nothing else.

It just makes me sad waking up each day and no one ever notices how I feel, how much I crave for that feeling of contentment. That feeling of nothing to worry about because I am happy. I have been trying so hard to find ways to go to School again for the sake of Arts, (I'll die with a troubled soul if I can't achieve that diploma), I still dream that I'll be able to have a job related to my passion. I believe that I was born to share what God had blessed me. I ain't just any Self-taught Artist, I am a blessed & gifted artist, that is two different thing, very different.

And so now, I'm not giving up, I know that if there's a will, there will always be a way no matter how cruel the world will be.
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